November 2011
55 posts
He's smarter than I am and more random
- Me: I don't know if we should hang out when you come home. I'm just a big pile of depressing.
- Alex: Perfect. So am I. Though I'm sure it involves puppies.
- Me: What about puppies?
- Alex: Yes.
I want to know why everyone isn’t dying their hair funny colors.
What is wrong with YOU!?
You know what? I’m glad I don’t have friends. I’m happy you guys are ignoring me. Fuck you too. I don’t know what I did or if its some sort of team effort but both of you can suck each other’s dicks and fuck off.
I had a dream that I went to the wrong house and Jake’s new girlfriend was there. She was wearing my shirt and she introduced herself to me politely. Jake didn’t do anything, he was just looking sad. It was really terrible. I wanted to rip my face off. It was a mixture of anxiety, fear, sadness, and just tons of uncomfortable feelings.
I wish that breaking up meant we didn’t have to see/hear from/hear ABOUT our past significant others. This is the worst breakup I’ve ever had and it kills me.
All my friends are his friends and therefore they are not talking to me. All of my old friends pretty much gave up on me when I never came home. That or I was just a dick and ruined those friendships. I have no one to talk to and no one to comfort me. And GOD I miss him so much. My heart breaks nine times a day.
And its my fault.
I’m a liar, a cheat, a poor excuse for anything.